Patience

Sooo, I was asked to speak on the topic of patience, which (to be perfectly honest) is a little tough for me. In truth, I'm not a particularly patient person. I want every good thing that can happen to happen RIGHT NOW. Seriously, the phrase "Faith w/o works is dead." is meant for me because if I have any power to make something great happen in my life, then I'm going to use it.

However, while I'm not a patient person...I am a faithful, believer. Sometimes, despite my best efforts, I just have to wait for some stuff. I wanna buy a new couch and bed for my home, but that's just not going to happen right now. I've had several other big expenditures this year, and I really need to let the budget recoup. Now waiting isn't fun...esp. when I'm reminded of my need for an upgrade every time that I walk in my living room...but it is what it is.

Should I be sad or depressed about this? Nada, life is too short for that. Instead I am constantly planning for the future. I KNOW that I'm going to get to make this purchase at some point within the next year. It may not be exactly when I wanted to, but it will happen...so I am making plans for that day. I guess this is how I merge my impatience with my faith...every time that a plan/hope/dream gets delayed or put on hold, I get the wheels in motion for my new target date. It's almost like a delayed flight at the airport (I know I have some travellers out there). When your flight is delayed, you may get annoyed, but you don't go home (like 'Forget it! I'm not flying today.'). Instead you estimate your new boarding time (back at the gate 30 mins b4 departure), grab a mag or a meal to kill the time, and stay close to the gate in case the departure gets moved up. You adjust and get busy looking forward to your new 'victory'.

Now...when faith doesn't work...I am also delusional :-) By that I mean...I'm just pretty good at putting some sort of a positive spin on stuff that happens in my life. I wanted to get a new camera in July, but I had to wait until later in the year. Perfect excuse...my BIRTHDAY. Now, instead of being bummed about not having a new camera already, I'm counting down until I get to treat myself in the near future. Hooray for me!